Saturday, August 3, 2013, 3:00pm
Today we set off on a wonderful fearful adventure. The time has finally come for my graduation / surviving the bar exam trip that we have been saving points for for about 6 years. We are on our way today to Papeete, Tahiti in the South Pacific. I am so excited I can hardly stand it, as neither of us has ever been past the equator, and we are excited to be setting out on yet another adventure. We have been to so ma y placed over the past eight years,but I thoughts is the furthest either of us has been before, although Oman is pretty far away from home, too, and Sweetie has been there before.
We are at LAX right now, awaiting our flight. The flying time to Papeete is 8.5 hours, and I think I am up for it. We flew nine going to kauai, but that was about five years ago and a lifetime of stress away from today.
I need th I time to relax, to become me again,and to turn off the stress I have been under for so very long now. When I got divorced, I felt the stress just melting away. Now, it has been so long since I have felt no stress that I don’t remember what it feels like to be “normal”, and I either must get back there or face an early stress death. I know it.
I am tired. I have been studying non-stop for months, years really, and finally that is all behind me. I am ready to move on, one way or the other, and find something that makes me feel alive and not dead. I am ready to be at a place where my talents are recognized and appreciated instead of being a point of consternation. I am scared to leave, but I am also ready. When I return from this trip, I will start looking in earnest.
For now,Sweetie and I are going to have the time of our lives in a land far away. A land my grandfather fought in and around when he was at war. A place I have dreamed about for years,and a place I thought I would never get to go. I am ready
Who knows where life will take us next? We will just have to wait and see and enjoy the ride along the way.