My resolution for 2012? To not be scared anymore.
2011 was a trying year. At work, we started the long process of getting our building ready for occupancy, continuing to build the 258,000 square feet, and giving over 130 tours to groups during 2011 alone. I also got my second C ever in school on a report card – in law school. I had never received a C in all of school or college, so getting two in law school was a drag. After the second one, though, it's like something pushed me over a hill that I was afraid to climb. Although I don't want to get anymore Cs, it wouldn't bother me too much, since it's like I got there and now it's not as big of a deal anymore.
This year also saw some very difficult times at work – with people who were not the easiest to work with, with a scary survey, and with one particular individual who continues to berate me to the point of insanity. I don't deserve this person's berating, and no one else does, either. It's not just me, and I wish it would stop.
I also traveled to a place where I finally feel at home – more so than I do in Arkansas. I want to move there, and it feels good to have found "that" place finally. I hope that we are able to do that in the next few years. It would be so nice to live at the beach.
Personally, it was a tough year as well. We had struggles and strife in our lives due to reasons I won't go into here. Someone thought that we would not make it through, but we did, and we are even stronger than we were before. Like they say, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. In this case, it couldn't be more true. Bring it. That's all I'll say about that.
So…for 2012, I want to be non-scared of things. I lived for 14 years being scared a lot. I got out of that situation and will not go there again. I want to be strong enough to not be scared to
(1) do the right thing, no matter what someone else thinks (I already do this one, so that's easy)
(2) not worry so much about what someone else thinks
(3) understand that I cannot change people, no matter how idiotic, bitchy, or just downright mean they may be
(4) there is a great big world outside of my job. I need to branch out and discover that place.